Matcha atau Kopi ?

By Nur Nadhirah Sofia binti Mohd Farid

“Aku nak tanya ni, suka matcha atau suka kopi?”

I actually have absolutely no idea. I tend to feel like I’m a different person to different people in my life. Sometimes, I’m a little louder; the next minute, I don’t speak at all. And I don’t think I’m the only one who feels this way. It’s a universal experience.

When I think about this, three questions always appear in my head.

1. Do I know myself?

Yes, I do, to a certain extent. But knowing yourself completely is almost impossible, because your “true self” is never in its final form. Who you are today will not be the same as who you are in the next ten years. In fact, it doesn’t even take ten years for change to happen; sometimes, it only takes ten days.

2. Why do I need to be several different people?

Being different versions of yourself doesn’t mean you’re fake or that you can’t be yourself all the time. It simply means you’re adapting. Different people have different opinions, beliefs, and even different favorite foods and that’s what makes us unique. Adjusting yourself to your surroundings isn’t wrong; it’s just human nature.

3. Who is the real me?

A tricky question. At first, I thought the answer was: “the version of me when nobody is around.” But over time, I realized it’s more complicated than that. There is no single right or wrong version of yourself. Every version is valid. Maybe the truth is that I’m still searching, and that’s totally okay.

In the end, you don’t have to choose between being “matcha” or “kopi.” After all, there are countless other drinks out there. What’s your favorite drink?